Conversations With A father.

Sometimes when I get emotional which is usually stimulated by a song or music... I think of my Dad and wish that we had a better relationship, not that it is bad, but I wish it was better... I wish we could both set aside the crap that we have to do in life that will get us nowhere... the stuff that brings a false sense of meaning. Such as work, and activities that keep us running around all the time.


To set some of these things aside so that we could spend some good quality time, first figuring out what makes each other tick, and second, empowering each other to tick in a way that makes a difference personally and emotionally. More importantly, a difference that will be seen by others in an extremely positive way. A difference that makes others come alive and have the desire to move forward.


Then as I listen to the song further a tear falls and I realize that only what I search for can be fulfilled by God and His grace. A wonderful realization... but at the same time I realize that God gives us the ability to feel for a reason... so how do we act out Jesus in our lives... can we find a way to set the busyness aside to the point where we bring joy to God from meeting together in a vulnerable state, and moving past what holds us apart. A hard encounter for most. At the moment this selfless act defines love for me... healthy sacrifice of time for others, so that others may be more fulfilled.